Saturday, September 3, 2016

Homeschooling & Being Afraid of the Whole Entire World

I'm not super impressed with the people that our society is churning out. There. Said it. Off my chest. The expectation of what you should do and who you should become as a person in North America is just the absolute worst. And I'm not talking about the usual notion that people-are-terrible-because-they-want-lots-of-things-and-big-houses. That's neither here nor there. I'm talking about, many people are terrible because they are trained to be terrified, and they live their life based on it. Myself included. And it creates half-versions of ourselves, scared and shrivelled, and the result is terrible.

Many of us live in a squished-down fear bubble that won't pop and there's this undeniable truth that most of us kind of like it because it's safe to be scared of the whole world. If we live afraid of the world, at one point or another we can say, "See! I was right! The world is awful and we have reason to be scared of it!" and being right is a type of safety, I think.

So, when I tell people we've decided to homeschool our children - that we will start Kindergarten in our own home - the automatic belief is that we are homeschooling our children because we are terrified to send them to "regular school". We must homeschool because we must be afraid. Maybe we're afraid of violence. Maybe we're afraid of terrorism. Maybe we're afraid of the sex education system in Ontario. Maybe we're afraid they'll get pregnant or do drugs or be held down and forced to take an injection of Gardisil. Maybe we're afraid that they won't learn enough, that they won't fit into the confines of a grade system. Maybe we're afraid they'll be labelled with a disorder, that they'll be bullied, that they'll be changed. That they won't "turn out" Christians. Maybe we homeschool because we are scared to send them into the system.

Friends, our God is bigger than that.

And I can freely tell you, none of the above is true. We are homeschooling our children beginning this month because we aren't afraid. We aren't afraid that we will mess them up. We aren't afraid that they will lack opportunity. We aren't afraid of creating socially awkward creatures that lurk the skirts of the playground. We aren't afraid to let them learn in their own home.

We know many people who send their children to public school, many who homeschool and many who send their children to a faith-based school. Every person we know has their purposes for choosing a particular school system: some see their children as little missionaries, shining lights in dark places. Many see their children as precious metals, to be nurtured and protected. Some have schools that are nearby to their place of work. Some just simply need the break from needy voices and hands for six hours a day. None of these reasons are wrong.

But our reason is because we have confidence that it is families that are going to change the world and we have a rare opportunity to find out if that's true. We hope that by living out our days together - as a family - our impact in the world will be stronger than it would be apart. John and I are in an industry where we work many weekends and many evenings and daytime is our sacred resting place. We work together and we work from home. Daytime is when we do our creative work and our play, it's when we take walks, go to the gym and cook good food. Our days are our soft places to land, and our weekends and evenings are our work and community rhythm. So, by sending our children to a school system in the days, we would miss the evenings, miss the weekends, miss the soft and wide open spaces of play and rest and learning, and that's simply not worth it to us. We aren't afraid of what would happen if we sent our kids out to school; we instead are working to protect the intricate bonds of our little girls' little hands in ours, and be with them in our open spaces so they can have the very best of us, and we can teach them how to navigate the world.

We will homeschool because we are not afraid of family, we want to embrace it. We want to give our children the opportunity to find who they are in the sweet space of their own home, believing it will spill into the rest of the world with a wildness, a sense of freedom and a confidence that can change the future and maybe look a little different than the fear we have come so accustomed to knowing.

Thursday, May 5, 2016

How Do I Find Community?

Last time I wrote about what community is, to our family. You can read that post here, but the short of it is that community is a group of people that choose to be family... even though they don't have to be.

It sounds very fantastical and lovely and maybe just something that we could pull out of a fiction novel or a really great movie, but it's not. We can find and build community. Here's what's worked for us.

Start by having someone for dinner. You don't have to make it fancy to make it good. A lady at our church says that if you order pizza you're on the right track, and how true is that? I'd love to order pizza at a friend's house! Have a favourite dish you like to cook? Or maybe just a dessert? Food is going to be your friend here. (Also, when is food not your friend?)

Unless you're submerged in a group of people that are always intentional about community and inclusion, (and if you have, please tell me where this land of wonder lies), the chances are good that you will need to stretch your legs a little and do some building yourself. 

Here's what we found works, most of the time, for our family.

First, we have to make a decision with ourselves and our spouse that we're going to be real together, and then invite people into that realness. (Realness, it's a word.) Things do not have to be perfect in order to add new people into your life. That's really hard to do. Trust me, I know that. In my ideal world, I'd have my home spotless and my kids well behaved and my dog properly trained and my hair and makeup finished with a good meal on the stove before I allowed someone into my home... but the reality is that if I wait for all of those things to line up, I might have someone over at my house once every six years.

So, when you come to our house, the chances are good that you'll be greeted with a toddler opening the door and a dog with a 7 inch tongue (our neighbour measured it) either jumping all over you or making a break for it. Food will probably be on the stove because we love a good meal, but if you dare enter the main floor bathroom, keep your expectations in order because it has not been cleaned in far too long (which is about three days with our family). Your feet might crunch some Lego, but it's cool, you'll get used to it. And you'll be asked by my girls to read them a story before you can even begin an adult conversation, or, you know, take your coat off. There might be dishes in the sink from earlier in the day and a half written email open on the computer. But this is our life, and we want to welcome you into it, and if you feel for a second that we've been real with you, you might begin to be real with us also. We don't plan to air out our dirty laundry for the world to see but we want you to know that we trust you enough to show you our life as it really is. The chances are good that your home looks similar on any given day and maybe it'll open the door for some conversation, or at least make you feel like you can judge us, which is fine by me. You're so welcome.

But the door is opened. Our hangout might not be great, maybe we're not a good match. That's always possible and better luck next time. But the chances are good that we'll find something to talk about and bond over and get real about and that's when the door to community begins to crack open.

So how do we swing the door wide open? It might not, and probably won't, happen right away... but you share a need. Anyone shares a need. Right across the board, needs are everywhere. Maybe a hand with cleaning up the kitchen from dinner, or some prayer about a decision you have to make. You might be looking for advice on a topic that your guest/new possible friend is an expert on, or have something a little more concrete that you are dealing with. Again, you don't have to air all of your dirty laundry in order to communicate that the other person is needed - the idea is to learn from each other and understand that together we can do, talk about, teach and learn so much more than without the other.

Community reciprocates. This isn't a debit / credit situation where I owe you and you owe me, because you might need me in seasons much more than I need you and vice versa. In the summer months, my community has my back in ways I can't describe when it comes to childcare so that John and I can just focus on keeping our business on track. When we were in Nicaragua, our community back home was maintained through intentional (with 1 set of friends it was weekly) Skype sessions, checking in with each other about the mundane stuff that real days are made of. They were there for us, and there are ways we have been there for them, but we don't keep a tally of it.

So how to build it? Get real and authentic, humble yourself and understand your need for other people, and hope that when you open yourself up to them, they'll open themselves up to you as well. It's simple and it's complicated; it's magical and powerful and I can't wait for you to try it.

Do life together; take all the kids grocery shopping, or plan a hike, somewhere that you don't have a specific timeline and you can just wander together.

The most obvious place you should be able to find people to build Community with is church, but this is not as common as I'd like it to be, and we don't all go to church. Many people are comfortable keeping their daily life and their church life distinct. But can we agree together, please, to break that wall down until the pieces are crumbled into dust?

Church is not a Sunday meeting, Church is family, and it's our responsibility to make it that way. We don't have to be in the same age group to build community with people, although it certainly is easier when there's a pile of each other's kids running around. Those that are older than us are eager to impart their wisdom and those that are younger than us are eager to learn - they may not know it yet, but it's built into all of us.

Community can be found in book clubs, in self employed groups, in children's playgrounds, in your neighbourhood. It's quite possible that it doesn't look like Community yet, but the roots are there because we all need each other, we just need to own it.

We need to be leaders in this way, all of us. We need to lead each other into community, because we need each other. If your church isn't living like this, that's all the more reason for you to be the one to start. It will be strange and uncomfortable. You'll get over it. Others will come on board.

Your community might not exist yet. It's up to all of us to lay the foundation, to build the walls. We are all a potential community waiting to happen. We are all in need in some way and we all have the tools it takes to build into each other's lives.

Search for a community around you and you will find it. Have fun building. This is going to be one of the best, hardest, and most fulfilling choices you've made.